My Death Is a Great Red Pen, Correcting-Kindra M. Austin

What you want, I ain’t got; and

goddamn,

I have the sinking feeling that it’s happening

again,

as night is falling down upon me. I submerge,

accordingly—

 

await my death.

My death eradicates mistakes I’ve made,

and saves.

My death is a great red pen, correcting

 

according to

Vodka,

on top of Fibromyalgia,

on top of Anxiety,

on top of Depression,

on top of Rx medication.

*

Two years dead,

and I’m still fucking seeking

mother’s affection.

I beat my breast,

claw my throat,

shake my insignificant

fists.

I cry confessionals ‘til Hell won’t have ‘em.

*

I have the sinking feeling that it’s happening

again,

as night is falling down upon me. I submerge,

accordingly—

 

await another death.

Each one eradicates mistakes I’ve made,

and saves.

I am pain,

and all my deaths

are a great red pen, correcting—

 

according to the spiders spinning webs

within the folds of gray matter.

 

©2019 Kindra M. Austin


Kindra M. Austin lives in an unobtrusive village in Mid-Michigan. She is the author of two novels (Magpie in August, and For You Rowena) and two books of poetry and prose (Constant Muses, and TWELVE). Her third novel is expected to be released in early 2020, and her third book of poetry, All the Beginnings of Everything, will be published by Indie Blu(e) in July, 2019. Austin and Christine E. Ray founded Indie Blu(e) Publishing in September, 2018.

Other publications include contributions to We Will Not Be Silenced: The Lived Experience of Sexual Harassment and Sexual Assault Told Powerfully Through Poetry, Prose, Essay, and ArtAnthology Volume I: Writings from the Sudden Denouement Literary CollectiveSwear to Me, and All the Lonely People.

 

37 Comments Add yours

  1. Kindra M. Austin says:

    Reblogged this on Morbid Corvid and commented:

    New poetry written by me, on HL&M.

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  2. bobcabkings says:

    Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
    At Heretics, Lovers, And Madmen, Kindra M. Austin dies over and over again.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Thank you so much!

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      1. Kindra M. Austin says:

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  3. John W. Leys says:

    Wow! Amazing, as always!

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Thank you so much, John! ❤

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  4. 1Wise-Woman says:

    Love this so much! Amazing writing ❤

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      I love you! Thank you.

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      1. 1Wise-Woman says:

        You’re welcome! Love you too ❤

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    2. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Thank you! ❤

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      1. 1Wise-Woman says:

        You’re welcome ❤

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  5. tamarafricke says:

    Excellent rhythm and use of repetition and the imagery, hot damn this is goodness.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Oh my gosh. Thank you!

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  6. This is one of my favorites from you Kindra. amazing writing. Death indeed is a red pen correcting out mistakes that we are late to correct.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Megha, you are so fantastic, and I appreciate you. Thank you very much!

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      1. I love you so much Kindra my dear friend.

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      2. Kindra M. Austin says:

        ❤ ❤

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  7. Reblogged this on Megha's World and commented:
    Read this brilliant poem from one of the talented authors I’m proud to call my friend – Kindra Austin.

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  8. This is truly a killer piece. Excellent!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Wow! Thank you so much. Sending you good vibes! ❤

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      1. Many thanks, Kindra. I can certainly use them!

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    2. Kindra M. Austin says:

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  9. Reblogged this on The Abject Muse and commented:
    I just had to share this phenomenal piece by Kindra M. Austin.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

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  10. I reblogged this on The Abject Muse.

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  11. Reblogged this on Brave & Reckless and commented:

    Brilliant writing from Kindra M. Austin

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Thank you, Love! ❤

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      ❤ ❤

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  12. Silent Hour says:

    The rhythm and the way it flows are excellent. The repetitions are so well placed. You did it again, my dear — but then you always do.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:

      Thank you Goddess B! ❤

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      1. Silent Hour says:

        You are welcome! Many kisses!

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      2. Kindra M. Austin says:

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