I am the one that has always
been a little odd
has always felt “too much”
the one that dreams and trusts
and loves
wildly
the one people have tried to shame, or dull
or crush
because light and all this capacity
for loving
is cryptonite to the bitter soul
and because making one
like me hurt
or seem less
makes them feel big
strong
in control.
I am the one your mother warned you about
the one
who will give and lift you up
in ways she never would, or never
was lifted herself
and who are YOU
to deserve more
than she ever got?
I am dangerous in my refusal
to be dimmed, to give up on hope
and my loving light may make you see
just how wrong your mother was
and we can’t have that now, can we?
For some who I am is the Nemesis
to their continued
gaze inward to the dark
the resentful
the cruel
for others
an awakening
to the possibility
of more.

I am a single Mom of two teenage boys, a massage therapist and physical therapy assistant living in New England.  I have been writing poetry and journaling stream of thought since I was a young girl.  Writing has always been therapeutic and at times life saving for me.  Bleeding ink onto paper has been as natural and important as breathing.  In my late 40’s I begin to consider sharing my writing and publishing. I have always been so grateful for other authors and being able to see that I am not alone in my struggles along my path in this world.  I hope my writing can give others the same lift, hope, sense of belonging.

Find me on Facebook at: Darker Rooms  and Dee Ray