Kindra M. Austin, Poetry

My Death Is a Great Red Pen, Correcting-Kindra M. Austin

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What you want, I ain’t got; and

goddamn,

I have the sinking feeling that it’s happening

again,

as night is falling down upon me. I submerge,

accordingly—

 

await my death.

My death eradicates mistakes I’ve made,

and saves.

My death is a great red pen, correcting—

 

according to

Vodka,

on top of Fibromyalgia,

on top of Anxiety,

on top of Depression,

on top of Rx medication.

*

Two years dead,

and I’m still fucking seeking

mother’s affection.

I beat my breast,

claw my throat,

shake my insignificant

fists.

I cry confessionals ‘til Hell won’t have ‘em.

*

I have the sinking feeling that it’s happening

again,

as night is falling down upon me. I submerge,

accordingly—

 

await another death.

Each one eradicates mistakes I’ve made,

and saves.

I am pain,

and all my deaths

are a great red pen, correcting—

 

according to the spiders spinning webs

within the folds of gray matter.

 

©2019 Kindra M. Austin

Kindra M. Austin lives in an unobtrusive village in Mid-Michigan. She is the author of two novels (Magpie in August, and For You Rowena) and two books of poetry and prose (Constant Muses, and TWELVE). Her third novel is expected to be released in early 2020, and her third book of poetry, All the Beginnings of Everything, will be published by Indie Blu(e) in July, 2019. Austin and Christine E. Ray founded Indie Blu(e) Publishing in September, 2018.

Other publications include contributions to We Will Not Be Silenced: The Lived Experience of Sexual Harassment and Sexual Assault Told Powerfully Through Poetry, Prose, Essay, and Art, Anthology Volume I: Writings from the Sudden Denouement Literary Collective, Swear to Me, and All the Lonely People.

 

40 Comments Add yours

  1. Kindra M. Austin says:
    August 18, 2019 at 4:12 pm

    Reblogged this on Morbid Corvid and commented:

    New poetry written by me, on HL&M.

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  2. bobcabkings says:
    August 18, 2019 at 6:04 pm

    Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
    At Heretics, Lovers, And Madmen, Kindra M. Austin dies over and over again.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 19, 2019 at 11:48 am

      Thank you so much!

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      1. bobcabkings says:
        August 19, 2019 at 12:47 pm

        Happy to do it

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      2. Kindra M. Austin says:
        August 26, 2019 at 4:24 pm

        ❤

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  3. John W. Leys says:
    August 18, 2019 at 6:05 pm

    Wow! Amazing, as always!

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 20, 2019 at 1:51 pm

      Thank you so much, John! ❤

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  4. 1Wise-Woman says:
    August 18, 2019 at 9:58 pm

    Love this so much! Amazing writing ❤

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 19, 2019 at 11:50 am

      I love you! Thank you.

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      1. 1Wise-Woman says:
        August 23, 2019 at 1:13 am

        You’re welcome! Love you too ❤

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    2. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 26, 2019 at 4:25 pm

      Thank you! ❤

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      1. 1Wise-Woman says:
        August 31, 2019 at 11:57 pm

        You’re welcome ❤

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  5. 1Wise-Woman says:
    August 18, 2019 at 9:59 pm

    Reblogged this on A Wise Woman Writes.

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  6. tamarafricke says:
    August 19, 2019 at 9:29 am

    Excellent rhythm and use of repetition and the imagery, hot damn this is goodness.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 19, 2019 at 11:49 am

      Oh my gosh. Thank you!

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  7. Megha's World says:
    August 19, 2019 at 11:19 am

    This is one of my favorites from you Kindra. amazing writing. Death indeed is a red pen correcting out mistakes that we are late to correct.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 19, 2019 at 11:51 am

      Megha, you are so fantastic, and I appreciate you. Thank you very much!

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      1. Megha's World says:
        August 19, 2019 at 12:08 pm

        I love you so much Kindra my dear friend.

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      2. Kindra M. Austin says:
        August 26, 2019 at 4:24 pm

        ❤ ❤

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  8. Megha's World says:
    August 19, 2019 at 11:20 am

    Reblogged this on Megha's World and commented:
    Read this brilliant poem from one of the talented authors I’m proud to call my friend – Kindra Austin.

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  9. The Abject Muse says:
    August 19, 2019 at 3:37 pm

    This is truly a killer piece. Excellent!

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 20, 2019 at 1:52 pm

      Wow! Thank you so much. Sending you good vibes! ❤

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      1. The Abject Muse says:
        August 20, 2019 at 2:25 pm

        Many thanks, Kindra. I can certainly use them!

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    2. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 26, 2019 at 4:24 pm

      ❤

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  10. The Abject Muse says:
    August 19, 2019 at 3:38 pm

    Reblogged this on The Abject Muse and commented:
    I just had to share this phenomenal piece by Kindra M. Austin.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 26, 2019 at 4:24 pm

      ❤

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  11. The Abject Muse says:
    August 19, 2019 at 3:39 pm

    I reblogged this on The Abject Muse.

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  12. braveandrecklessblog says:
    August 19, 2019 at 3:41 pm

    Reblogged this on Brave & Reckless and commented:

    Brilliant writing from Kindra M. Austin

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 20, 2019 at 1:53 pm

      Thank you, Love! ❤

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  13. braveandrecklessblog says:
    August 19, 2019 at 3:41 pm

    Gave me the chills. 🙏

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 26, 2019 at 4:23 pm

      ❤

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  14. saynotoclowns says:
    August 20, 2019 at 12:51 am

    🖤💘

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 26, 2019 at 4:23 pm

      ❤ ❤

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  15. Silent Hour says:
    August 20, 2019 at 6:03 am

    The rhythm and the way it flows are excellent. The repetitions are so well placed. You did it again, my dear — but then you always do.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      August 20, 2019 at 1:53 pm

      Thank you Goddess B! ❤

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      1. Silent Hour says:
        August 25, 2019 at 5:23 am

        You are welcome! Many kisses!

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      2. Kindra M. Austin says:
        August 26, 2019 at 4:22 pm

        ❤

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  16. saynotoclowns says:
    December 14, 2019 at 1:00 am

    I had to read this again. So good.

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    1. Kindra M. Austin says:
      December 18, 2019 at 3:14 pm

      Thank you! ❤

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      1. saynotoclowns says:
        December 19, 2019 at 10:36 pm

        I love love love it. Not that all that shit happens, but your gorgeous expression. Hope things are okay? ❤

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